I Am Brave

I love my one-year-old’s power walk. She cruises through the house, fearless, unstoppable. Because she knows nothing about what could possibly happen. She has no anticipatory anxiety. She simply enjoys discovering the parts of life she now has access to. What if we were like this? A little healthy fear to keep us safe isContinue reading “I Am Brave”

An Integration of Body and Soul

I had an interesting session with my hypnotherapist. What began as a discussion about manifesting a wildly successful writing career quickly turned into a discussion about my longstanding body image struggles. Who knew the two could be connected? She threw me a curve ball when she asked me if I loved myself. I thought, “OfContinue reading “An Integration of Body and Soul”

To Get Us Up & Out

Do you have a power outfit? A suit of armor to protect you when you have to leave the house. Some people wear make up, others style their hair. I have colors. When I’m anxious, I go back to basics: black, white, and red. Because I am most comfortable in these colors, I become theContinue reading “To Get Us Up & Out”

The Validation that Matters Most

I recently put on a pair of leggings because of how they made me feel, not because of how they made me look. The vibrant colors made me happy, but the patterns definitely did not make me thinner. This was a turning point for me where the goal of the day was not to lookContinue reading “The Validation that Matters Most”

“I Love Your Squishy Parts”

Although sweet, this is a multi-layered statement, eliciting a complicated emotional response. One that usually ends in laughter, because that’s how I deal with discomfort. This statement acknowledges my squishy parts but simultaneously loves them. It means I can’t hide them, which creates fear, but also asks the question, “Why hide them?”, which is empowering.Continue reading ““I Love Your Squishy Parts””

Feeling Sexy Impacts Sex

I’ve been feeling pretty uncomfortable in my body lately, and this impacts so many facets of my life. I’m struggling to sleep because much of my body hurts. My body moves differently after having children and losing weight. I exist differently within my body, and I don’t recognize myself. And this all affects sex. HowContinue reading “Feeling Sexy Impacts Sex”

Why I Avoid my Mirror

Enough about self-care. Let’s talk about some self-love 💕. Anyone else feeling really yucky about her body right now? I realized I ignore my mirror completely when changing because I can’t handle seeing my body. The lumps and dimples, rolls and stretch marks seem to scream horrible words at me, and so I choose notContinue reading “Why I Avoid my Mirror”

FAT TUMMY

Rose grabbed my stomach yesterday and asked if I was “embarrassed about [my] fat tummy.” I can surprisingly say that the question didn’t bother me as much as I thought it would. I actually laughed because I found her childlike honesty refreshing, not because I was uncomfortable.  I’ve struggled with my body image for yearsContinue reading “FAT TUMMY”

The Most Important Love of All

Last night I ate dinner in the bathroom. For some reason it seemed like the best solution. The older girls were washing up in the bath, and I was rocking Willow in the car seat with my foot. Yes, while eating my hamburger and lemonade.  It was one of those days. I’m sure you knowContinue reading “The Most Important Love of All”

The Post Baby Body

I’ve been having a rough couple of days with my post baby body. Sometimes I could care less that I have stretch marks and extra skin, and sometimes it actually begins to affect my self-worth. I’ve yet to experience another attribute that allows me to devalue myself, quite like weight and size. Why does theContinue reading “The Post Baby Body”