The Freedom of Exercise

It’s been a rough month over here. Hell, it’s been a rough year and a half 🙈. After struggling with my mental health through the pandemic, moving, and having the kids at home full-time, we all got Covid. Although the lingering physical effects of our illness took weeks to shake off, it has been hardContinue reading “The Freedom of Exercise”

Happy Father’s Day

Thank you for embarking on this crazy journey of four kids in four years with me. We’ve figured some things out, but we’re continuing to learn and grow together every day. Thank you for your sacrifices and your gigantic heart. You would give everything away if I didn’t make you keep a little for yourselfContinue reading “Happy Father’s Day”

To Feel Less Alone

While talking to my husband, he’ll often finish my thoughts and tell me he gets it. To which I reply, “But I need to say it.” What is it about the presence of an audience that gives our words weight? If Yev wasn’t going to listen, why did I still want to tell him? WhyContinue reading “To Feel Less Alone”

“I Love Your Squishy Parts”

Although sweet, this is a multi-layered statement, eliciting a complicated emotional response. One that usually ends in laughter, because that’s how I deal with discomfort. This statement acknowledges my squishy parts but simultaneously loves them. It means I can’t hide them, which creates fear, but also asks the question, “Why hide them?”, which is empowering.Continue reading ““I Love Your Squishy Parts””

You Have Another Parent!

I was tired. I was spent. I just had nothing left. So when we all sat down at the couch to watch a movie, and the mom questions pelted at me like arrows, I just kind of erupted. “You have another parent!” Anyone else feel like the kids only want you, even if your spouseContinue reading “You Have Another Parent!”

Feeling Sexy Impacts Sex

I’ve been feeling pretty uncomfortable in my body lately, and this impacts so many facets of my life. I’m struggling to sleep because much of my body hurts. My body moves differently after having children and losing weight. I exist differently within my body, and I don’t recognize myself. And this all affects sex. HowContinue reading “Feeling Sexy Impacts Sex”

At the Expense of Myself

I’ve always thought that I was a patient person, but I’ve realized that I’m a master internalizer. What I attributed to an unnatural ability to remain calm in a stressful situation was simply me processing my emotions through my body. That’s a fancy way of saying my body suffered because my mind refused. I haveContinue reading “At the Expense of Myself”

Leaning into Love

I cried at preschool pick up this week. Twice. The air was hot, my emotions were awry, and my mask was stifling. Not a great combo for a mom without patience. I silently waited to the side for the girls to come out, keeping to myself when I usually make conversation. The other moms andContinue reading “Leaning into Love”

A Five Minute Conversation

Aren’t morning tantrums the worst, or is it just me? Add a newborn and a husband who has 6am meetings. Sometimes the sun isn’t even awake, and I’m already here [raises hand above 5’4” frame]. Yep, sometimes we board the struggle bus early in this fam, and I’m finding I’m not coping as well asContinue reading “A Five Minute Conversation”

Wine Wednesdays!

How are you coping during Covid? Above all, my relationships are suffering and consequently my mental health. The hubs and I are surprisingly doing great. I never imagined I could be cooped up with one person for so long, and we could still enjoy each other’s company at the end of the night. I won’tContinue reading “Wine Wednesdays!”