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Day Care Guilt

I dropped my daughter off at day care this morning, and it killed me a little bit. The idea of another mother watching my child because I was unable to do so. The guilt clung to my shoulders and suffocated my heart.  My other children ventured outside the house once they were old enough forContinue reading “Day Care Guilt”

I Am Brave

I love my one-year-old’s power walk. She cruises through the house, fearless, unstoppable. Because she knows nothing about what could possibly happen. She has no anticipatory anxiety. She simply enjoys discovering the parts of life she now has access to. What if we were like this? A little healthy fear to keep us safe isContinue reading “I Am Brave”

A Birthday of Memories

Every year, a few days before my birthday, I have deep and dark thoughts about missing my sister. Once the day actually comes, the anxiety dissipates, and I am able to find excitement in celebrating with the people who are still here. But those days leading up can be brutal. If you’re missing someone onContinue reading “A Birthday of Memories”

At the Expense of Myself

I’ve always thought that I was a patient person, but I’ve realized that I’m a master internalizer. What I attributed to an unnatural ability to remain calm in a stressful situation was simply me processing my emotions through my body. That’s a fancy way of saying my body suffered because my mind refused. I haveContinue reading “At the Expense of Myself”

The Most Difficult Year of my Life

I feel as if I am walking out of the most difficult year of my life. I’m sure there are more hardships that will come my way, but I have never had my mental, physical, and spiritual health tested like I did this year. I have never experienced self-doubt or feelings of ineptitude on aContinue reading “The Most Difficult Year of my Life”

If Only We Could Worry Less

The girls have a photo shoot later tonight, and I’m starting to get nervous. I’m really excited to work with the photographer, a close childhood friend, and I can’t wait to have more professional photos. I’m just not looking forward to the unknown. It’s kind of the way I feel about getting on an airplaneContinue reading “If Only We Could Worry Less”

A Perfectionist in Recovery

I experienced a surprising moment of shame yesterday as a parent. For those of you who read my article, 1st Day of Preschool, I was already really nervous about what other adults would think about my children at preschool. I didn’t even realize how much other people’s opinions mattered to me until today. I thinkContinue reading “A Perfectionist in Recovery”

1st Day of Preschool

I dropped the twins off yesterday for their first day of preschool. I’m sure you’re thinking, “What?? Preschool? It’s summer!” Ya I know. But these preschool classes run all year, and the girls finally hit the age requirements to join. They have so much energy that I need to get them out of the houseContinue reading “1st Day of Preschool”